Let’s try this again.

Last year I introduced you all to the ilex, a project that was “dedicated to exploring the meaning of community and what it takes to live a fulfilling life for yourself.” Since it’s launch, the ilex became…. nothing. I have not written a single post outside of the now defunct “introduction” and I largely abandoned the project.

I had felt such pressure on myself at the time to do something “big”- something different – that would define me outside of my 9-5 corporate day job. I had spent weeks outlining potential posts, learning how to make a basic wordpress page, and fretting over how to take a decent photo and edit a video. But when it came down to it, I did not follow through. I felt that no one would read it and it would sit in its own echo-chamber – nothing more than e-diary. In fact, the only reason that I even published the ilex in the first place was because that evening I had ran into (literally) a man I’d been seeing while he was on a date with someone else and I felt I needed to do something for myself… last year was weird.

So fast forward to tonight – why bring this project back from the dead? I’ve spent the past year getting to know myself outside my 9-5 and have made such strides in building confidence in my creative endeavors, that I do want to share these endeavors with others. And if you don’t care to read it, that’s okay. The ilex will be here, with or without you. But, seeing as this is a project that hopes to foster community, I hope you’ll stay. You might even has as much fun reading my musings as I have writing them out.

Until next time (and next time will be sooner rather than later),

Holly